It's a random Thursday

179 Days | 247.2 lbs

It's been a week or so since I wrote here. It's been a hard and learning experience.

My belief as always is that weight loss begins in the kitchen. Despite my years of a million methods...calorie counting wins again.

Trying to stay "keto" with lower carbs? Kind of. But the trust is that eating a giant bowl of popcorn (low calories but high carbs) is still at this time more satisfying than a little bit of high fat meat.

Trying to keep to OMAD (on meal a day)? When I can...but right now having a big lunch and a small night time snack is winning me over mentally.

Drinking? I fell some good progress here. Instead of drinking the equivalent of 1.5 bottles of wine a night (in my boxed wine form)...I've started enjoying a bit of THC (in vape form) with my spouse at night, and keeping my alcohol intake down to 1-2 shots of brandy a night in the form of large tea drinks over the course of 3-5 hours.

But the main goal...working toward it. Not much cumulative lost over the week, but a lot of what I feel is constructive observation over the last week. It's dumb, because from battling this all my life I should know more right away, but it always seems like this is a learning lesson. At this time of my life I'm more able to do X vs Y, so now I have to include new information.

Growing old...what a pain.

All that to say, not much progress in numbers it seems, but a good bit in the mental area. Things that I've allowed myself to cheat with...they are at least very slightly less tempting than before. I still want to eat X all evening long (where X is either noodles or cheetos), but I'm able to avoid getting up and getting it with the use of THC and healthy snacks...or at least low-cal snacks, like popcorn.

Anywho...This is my one night a week to still drink wine, and apparently (a good thing!), my tolerance for wine has already started to go down. It's hardly 9pm here and I'm needing to lay down, lol.

Please, Universe/Jesus/MySubconcious...let me be able to keep up my willpower tomorrow.